On Singledom

On Singledom credit: http://www.flowers-magzine.com/Reviving_Wilted_Roses I can rejoice in the fact that it’s just me again. I no longer have the burden of another person. I can do what I want, when I want. I can enjoy the uncertainty of being a twenty-year-old junior in college. I can enjoy the uncertainty of what will happen every time I go out. I actually feel like going out again. The strange sadness that prevented me from doing anything is gone. The strange sadness of knowing that I was in the wrong relationship is gone completely. I can listen to all kinds of happy single-girl music, and then recognize that it isn’t my style. I can actually figure out what my style is. I can actually figure myself out. I remember that I’m still not fully acquainted with who I am. I have yet to fully develop my own identity. I can start by gathering qualities in myself that I admire. I admire my sensitivity, as it denotes empathy and caring. That doesn’t mean that I am weak or fragile, it means that I hold consideration for others in the highest regard. It means that I am in tune with my emotions and that I have a warm, open, heart. I know that I am stronger than I seem. I can remember bad things, much worse than this breakup that I got myself through. I recognize that I am my own best advocate. I can keep my own company and be in a relationship with myself. I know that the relationship that I have with myself is the most important relationship in my life. I know that at the end of the day, I have to be my own lover. I know that unless I have a stable, loving, respect-filled relationship with myself, that I will never be able to have one with another guy. I am thankful for the non-romantic relationships in my life. I am thankful for my family, and for my friends, who are the family I’ve chosen. I know that regardless of my romantic status, my life is filled with love. I will never give up on love. I will, of course, let my heart heal, and wait for the right person to let in next. I will be patient, but hopeful. I will be alright. I’m single again, and I’m going to be okay.